Sunday, July 18, 2010

We

Below you'll find an entry I made yesterday into another blog that I operate. I enjoy writing and expression and from time to time share my most crucial, non-design related thoughts over on Myspace.com, the location of my first ever blog. My mind sometimes tends to want to separate and compartmentalize things, so it's difficult for me to have one blog that houses design/sewing related material along with social/economic/semi-personal realities. Just as it was difficult for me to have one etsy shop where my everyday, casual garments was mixed in with my more fun, artsy items. (Those of you who've followed me for sometime may recall SewFly, which actually came before flyTie.) Eventually, though, I was able to frame my thinking in a way where I could combine those two.
(I find that this is a pretty unusual characteristic I have, seeing as how I'm generally inclined towards a wholistic way of thinking and living.)
But anyway, this entry is about life, experience, inspiration, realization, and a dress. :-)
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"I realize we are in truth the truth we seek
god
perfect
this very moment."--Me'Shell NdegeOcello




nature dress

the other day--wednesday--i sat in the house feeling like my head would surely explode at any moment. there's been so much going on in my world lately, and at one point on wednesday, it's like it was all running together. in my mind. until finally i hit a wall. mentally. couldn't think/worry/stress anymore. my head felt tight. strained. and forget about designing/sewing. inspiration and the motivation to do so had been foreign to me lately. i thought it must be the feeling a balloon would have if it were filled to capacity with air and could feel. that feeling of needing release. deflating.

i got up and went outside to sit at a nearby lake and watch the water be peaceful and the animals--ducks, squirrels, etc.--play.

it didn't take long before i felt it. deflation. i literally felt myself, my mind letting go. i felt the tension leaving. until i reached a place on non-thought. i was just there. existing. mentally peaceful. then i had the desire to create something. it was an urgent, almost violent need.

i returned inside, stood in the doorway of my sewing room, and three different fabrics immediately caught my eye, and the idea for them came to me instantly. something simple. perfect. not too long after that, i had a dress. (see above)

i feel like i was saved that day. led. guided. set free.

and i knew what it would take to get there. it was in me. what i had to do was in me. i flowed with it, and understood--had it shown to me for the first time in a long time--that i am that truth. we are.

peace!!!

4 comments:

T.Allen-Mercado said...

Tell it. I'm right here...or is it there-with you. I'm laboring in my thoughts and creativity, I know the delivery is imminent and I'm just waiting it out.

Love the dress, that yellow is all about it! Keep flowing...

plantfolk said...

"and i knew what it would take to get there. it was in me. what i had to do was in me. i flowed with it, and understood--had it shown to me for the first time in a long time--that i am that truth. we are."

nothing to add on. just feeling that flow above. it's true. it's so funny how you can realize these things when in nature or later on after being amongst a natural setting.

Emma's Mom said...

Its always amazing how the most beautiful things result from times like what you described =). I am glad that you found your peace in nature, and that it gave you a boost. That is such a FABULOUS dress.

boatx2 said...

I think if we're moving too fast, we humans can run past the simple sentence that says:

"I feel like I was saved that day."

and miss that it was incredibly profound.

I'm glad a have a sister in "financial-ethical" struggles; and that ducks exist; and that dresses come out of moments like these.

^_^

love love, roe.